futuureeeeee n hisstoorryyyy n nooowww :/ i want before not after

weyh k fine ! diri aq totally change n i see it . from what ? idk . aneh ! i'm always pray supaya jdi yg lebih baik dri yg baik but at last ? huh ! some side say i never think about them :( some side say others . haiyak . sdih la . i'm starting to confuse  in my life . what happen to me ?!! macam bwu pas ilang ingatan . pleassee somebodyy . help me to wake me up from this dream . da ta larat la . i thought i just be for a while but npe still longer lasting . yg aq x pham . 'history' make me to pcah pala otak ! n 'future' hehehe trying your best to keep understanding between us orait . sometimes i learn from my mistakes . mybe i don't need to be so mystery in apa jua perkara i done . mungkin kna say something for what i done . contoh ! give some reason why i be like that . no more tanda tanya . tpiiii berat la . i don't want to cry again . no more tears . mybe if u try to facing with me i will explain to you . only that words i can say to sapa yg nak penjelasan aq . want complaination ? see me . i don't want just texting ! i want to hear , see ur face n feel what u saying is true . if not i will just let it be without any explaination oke ? deal or not ? k DEAL ! so come n see me . :)) hah ! lgi satu . mcm mne aq nak rpat ngan group cek if girls kelas cek cemburu . cemburu kowt ! itu satu lagi problem yg bgi aq pown nk pcah pala otak . pilih jln simple mmg la stay in class group . tpi how about the others ? waaa i want my history back !